Today was the first day to the meditation challenge. I love it! I am really hoping to get a better sense of who I am and what my purpose in life is. I feel like I am someone who is constantly taking on others negative energy. I want to have more confidence in myself but I am not sure how to gain that confidence. For example, I have a good chance of getting an LTO at a school where I know the teachers and the students which gives me some confidence (although I am still a little nervous) and I feel comfortable going into it. But then there are those people. You know, the people who say "make sure you do this and that", "keep it mind that (insert something negative here)", "You have some really challenging kids...". Basically people who "rain on your parade" because it is almost as though they hate to see you being happy. I have tried to look at it positively and think...hey maybe so and so is just trying to help. But really so and so is quite frankly pissing me off! Would it really be so hard to believe that I can actually do this and that maybe I am a good teacher. Why must we always be so competitive with one another? Why can we not be happy for others success?
I would love some advice on how to not take on others negative energies. Now I question my abilities where as I started off with confidence.
Goals for today...I am feeling a bit down because of this negative person in my life so I am going to stop worrying and start living. I need to think of all of the things that I am thankful for and appreciate those things rather than dwelling on the one negative thing in my life. Tonight I am going to be playing ultimate frisbee, I always find that getting out to exercise helps to clear my mind and it also makes me feel happy. Everytime this negative thing comes into my mind I need to self talk myself into thinking more positive thoughts...and not just thinking them but believing them. A bunch of job postings came out today so I am going to print them off tonight and decide on which ones I would like to apply to. I am going to better myself.
I am starting some new habits which I think will help me reach some of my organizational goals. These habits are simple, but something that I do not always do. I started with the kitchen and I will try to make these habits consistent for the month and I shall see if these things will actually become second nature to me. I will unload the dishwasher when it is done, clean my dishes after each use, and wipe the counters down daily. I know this seems boring and stupid but I really feel like simple changes every day are going to help me become a happier, more organized person.
If you have any advice or ideas about how to not let others actions or negative energies affect your life please let me know!!
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