Bored

It is funny...when you are working you just want to be at home and when you are at home you just want to be doing something....but then that feeling of boredom comes over you and even though you have a list of things you could and should be doing...you just don't want to do them.  Well, this is how I am currently feeling.  So...lets see my goal today was to go and plant flowers at my moms grave site and now I am thinking of what else I can do.  My fiance has suggested to go to the place we are getting married at to have some dinner and to write down a schedule of how we would like our night to go.  This sounds like a good plan to me...I can have a glass of wine...relax and actually get some work done for our wedding!   You would think I would be overly enthusiastic about this, but I am not.  I am wondering if the whole wedding planning thing is not so fun because my mom isn't around to help me with it.  There is so much to do still and I just do not feel like doing it.  I need to tackle one thing a day and get it done!  It is amazing how your feelings can change so drastically from one day to the next.  Yesterday I felt amazing and I was pretty much worry free.  Today, I am feeling that sense of anxiety come over me again and I am not sure why.  I need to keep busy and I need to stay on track with making some life changing goals.  I am really excited to start the meditation challenge tomorrow.  I am doing a course Monday-Thursday and my goal is to wake up early and meditate and have a good breakfast before going to my course.  I am going to go for dinner now and enjoy myself!  I need to keep positive and start living my life.  Here it goes!