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I am having a "fat" day today.  You know the days where you feel lazy and your pants don't fit and you are bloated and even though you aren't hungry you eat but all you want to eat is junk food!   Yes, it is one of those days.  On the path to bettering myself I need to do something about this.  I am currently on my lunch break but am not hungry because I have just downed a croissant, bagel, and two mini cupcakes!   I am keeping positive and I realize that it is not too late to change.  I am going for dinner with my sister tonight and need to order something healthy off of the menu.  That is step one.  Step two, I need to exercise today!!   I will run on the treadmill while watching Big Brother!!   I would do a DVD but I do not want to miss Big Brother (guilty pleasure) and I need to order my wedding invites today!   I did not end up doing my "Time Management Goals Checklist" yesterday because an old friend from out of town called and I went out for drinks with them instead!   Maybe not the best health move but I cannot feel guilty for something that makes me happy.  Also, I am not one of those people who drinks and drinks until I am drunk off my ass, so nothing to feel bad about!  I was still home and in bed by 11!  Yesterday the meditation did not go as well as it did on Monday.  I was so distracted and worried about these job postings.  I have only applied to 2 of them and need to get to work on that right when I get home from my course today.  My goal is to apply to 3 more postings today and then 3 more tomorrow!   They are due on Friday so if there are some others that I would like to apply to I can send them off then!   I need to remember that I already have a position and that I am well liked at the school, I cannot let one negative teacher get me down.  I do not know why I still have this nervous feeling in the pit of my stomach. I am wondering if adding caffeine back into my diet was a bad idea.  I have not had it for over a year because it was making me feel sick.  I slowly reintroduced it into my diet and felt fine but now I am feeling sluggish again.  So, out it goes!!! 
This week in the meditation challenge I am being asked the question  Who am I?  I am so unsure of this right now and it scares me.  Why do I not know the answer to this question?  My goal after the 21 day challenge is to become more clear about who I am and my purpose in life.